I need Thee every hour.

Earlier this september, during my SPM trials, my friend got two tickets to this amazing roller coaster ride. I remember debating with myself in the shower (i think best in the wash room) as to whether i should go for it...

Anyway my friends... Trials was crazy!!! The day before my exams began, i sat on the bed, strummed and sang this wonderful song... "Be Thou my vision" Bad choice... bad choice...

Right after singing that song i began to feel uncomfortable... and before u guys start getting any ideas it was nothing to do with my vision ok... my eyes didn't like pop out or undergo mitosis to form 4 eyes la k...but i fell sick... and i'm not talking bout sick as in "mommy my stomach pain pain rub oil yay kind of sick". I'm talking bout reaching 40 celcius kinda fever. I did pray that i would get well but unfortunately I had to do my chem and bahasa paper with my head burning.

The discomfort was unbareable so i had to go to the hospital and guess what?

Yo Guys... I got Influenza A....

Suspected H1N1 la so i was put under home quarantine.

I was like "Yes... check this out...i get to postpone my trials and do it at my own pace... take my time and get a higher chance of scoring". So i went home thinking this was cool u know getting quarantined and all... i slept the whole day till the next not knowing what was to befall me.

As i was reading my bible the next day my parents called and said "Get ready, lets go take exam..." I was like wait a minute, what exam? I was home quarantined remember? Hello!!! I haven't even studied for the paper that day... my parents managed to talk me into doing it... but i wasn't happy. I really don't like last minute changes to my plans especially at times like this. Reluctantly and angrilly i pulled out my moral value paper and started memorizing all the values... Kepercayaan kepada Tuhan... Tuhan, kenapalah?

From that minute onward my plans came crashing down... my whole schedule went haywire. Just to feed your thoughts... take into consideration this series of unfortunate events...

1. Due to my weakness I did not read the last chapter of history and the paper tested me on a whole wonderful 10 mark structure question on that chap and a handfull of objiays ( ever seen me cry... tell u what i cried man... at home la not in school... in school i man uggh!)

2. I had to eat buns for the whole duration of my trials.

3. My head was still recovering and my studying capacity was severely affected.

4. I bombed my add maths paper. Seriously i thought i would get 50 marks again.

5. I was treated like a leper... seriously... plastic forks, plastic spoons, no sitting on the sofa, locked up in my room, can only sit at the corner of the dining table, cannot play the piano, can't hug my family, had to wear mask even at home, can't talk, sent to pulau jerejak...

6.FISH all day FISH all night FISH until FISH tasted like RUBBER and i grew sick of the only meat i ate.

7. I was forced to go for a hair cut later on.

8. Was attacked by acne.

9. Had a reason not to pull late nighters.

10. Got demerit for going to school at nine although my paper only started at 12 somethin

11. Memorized the whole civics text book in my attempt to pull up my position but to my dismay i forgot one phrase and totally blew a ten mark essay which all my other friends who only spent a while reading the book aced.

12. I felt deserted by my classmates though some of them expressed concern.

You know what... i could go on and on and on and on telling you about what went wrong. But no... that won't do. Let me tell you how it all worked out.

I had everything under control. I've been studying since like forever focusing real hard for this. Everything was in my hands it was all dalam tangan... but u know what... maybe i held on to it too tightly that God had to force it open, and he did. He made my hopes of a good forecast result come crashing down. He took my confidence and broke it into pieces. He wiped away my hours of late nights He gave me tears he made me cry i questioned Him and moaned at Him so often that even if He wasn't tired of listening i was tired of questioning. I wanted to give up.

But in my weakness He was made strong.

As i stepped into school after the hols and got my results one by one i was just overwhealmed by waves and waves of grace and mercy. I scored way beyond any of my expectations and i can humbly say i graduated high school top three in the form.

Now as i look towards SPM i'm not saying that i will get all As or A+ or whatever it is. But i know one thing... God is with me. How often i forget.

Thus i would like to encourage anyone who is facing the examination period now... trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on Your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight.

In my weakness You be made strong LORD.



Earlier this year during my SPM trails, my friend got two tickets to this amazing roller coaster ride. I remember debating with myself in the shower ( i think best in the wash room) as to whether i should go for it...

I did and that made all the difference.